250 final c knowlwood

so another period is down.

the last huddle is 331. 200, 250 then final monument is critical care.

even the misfortune of first tix c sparky will be thought of as low that will precede highs.

the final week of 250 clinical was 3 days' week with wound care and leadership.

got some experience with charge nurses and meeting with my old patients with more amputations. i had two diabetes pts with amputations, two knee surgery pts, and a stroke pt were memorable. foley cath and im injection were my virgin tries.

i was crying when i was handing over the gift to margaret. i really liked her and final lunch at knowlwood. ellen was inspirational and i finally started liking working in the hospital a lot.

vietnam thought i was married. how funny! tingly discovery that he doesn't want to have kids. yuna kim's figure legend was stimulating story. right fertilizer for my 331 motif. pre-birthday celebration! so i think i'll spend my precious two days of freedom prepping and reading for 331. two months left til my 40th...!

the perfect day

i finished off my last 250 quiz c 100.

what a triumphant!

so i'm starting today. my sincere life, my best try and treat to myself.

i'll remember this every single day for two months.

will pray, love and thrive!!!

jeff called me yesterday. y??

sam called me the other day asking me to buy the ms office.

he's indeed clueless. i'm so much moved on...

yeah, i'd be happy alone than with miserable with someone below soulmate!

first im

well, i was very productive at the clinical in terms of getting skills down and practicing new skills, like foley cath and im injections, but not without some grain of salts. the first shot somewhat gave the pain to the pt and i resent that. i feel bad but lucky enough to have a kind client.

gerald, i'll remember him for my first im victim. :) patrick was my first virgin foley, so i'll remember him too. i gave myself bad behavioral grade and that was stupid... i blew off 10 % of my grade! in some way, i feel compensated for today's guilt. in the end, i know that i'll walk away with b and i'll shine in critical care. so i got to do ng tube feeding and accu check very comfortably, the isolation, subq inj, insulins and chartings... i can do better.

methinks i'll remember the smell of diarrhea, fortunate or unfortunate..

i devoured 3 episodes of house md today, but couldn't study at all for some reason.

new sincere leaf

the damage wasn't too bad and i'm at 80 for 250 now.

so i can do my last sprint warm up for 331.

i am totally serial. :)

two weeks of clinical and one last midterm that i have chance to make over..

well, the class did 83 and i couldn't have gotten a even if i had the class average.

so i don't feel so bad after all.

i'll feel super good if i catch up and finally score a at critical care.

yes, that is my mission that i'll hold my 40 years' maturation for.

i'll prove that i can do it. prove that my mind can still achieve and excel.

i'll reclaim my top 5 % status in the program on ATI test.

the first baby step is to get both As on the last quiz and the last test.

i can do it.

i will lead the way, ahead of the group. will be an A student!!!

this is it inspires

the midterm was a failure, but i did my best.

did i?

MJ's last rehearsal was inspirational for moi.

i am going to really try for critical care.

for my 40th year, for my birthday gift.

this is it, that i'll try really hard to get a.

maybe not to get a, but to try hard to do my best.

one memorable run on my 40th day, on culmination of my college years.

long stretched, 1+3+3+2.5+1.5 = 11 years?! :O

discussion with grad advisor was interesting too,

right in time... joy goebel is an excellent professor.

the best one, so far we had..

valentin's + new year's

well, turned out that i'm only level ii,

and i belong to the bottom half of the class with ATI test.

still, i like the combination of 88 + 77.3

although i failed 3 times on quiz,

i remember that i always did well after i failed,

so i hope again today for tomorrow.

i can still get A if i raise my current score to 85.

i need to get about 88 on midterms and 90 X 3 for the quizzes.

methinks i can do it.

dad will be helping me, and i'll help myself.

tony will inspire me and i'll do my best.

the rest is not up to me...

happy new year to me!

happy valentine's a moi!!

sigh of relief with 250

ATI test turned out okay, marking 73.3 %

what's significant was that i was above the class average at least.

considering i was at top 5 percentile of the program,

this current track is a bit of a slip,

but i'm confident that i'm building the solid ground now.

methinks it's since the winter N312 course.

although i ended with slightly below the average,

now I finally reached higher than the mean on both ATI and midterm.

one more significance is that i improved 25 % since last october,

and 15 % since the practice two weeks ago.

so let's celebrate and gallop!!

although i got C on victoria's careplan, the grade turned out A

and let's think i was lucky that she did not grade it til now. :D

7 to 27

it somewhat demoralized me to learn that "they" dropped mike.

how easy it is to lose what we have worked for so hard..

i'll pray, study and strategically maximize my time.

will use all my best to zip through all my huddles til the end of spring.

praying to dad, praying to pyramid, and praying to my inner goddess...

my new religion

coco left..

i have a new religion now. i pray to dad. i meditate with him, converse with him and ask him to takc after me. he has listened so far. i'm going to channel my spirituality to connect with my inner self and core. dad will guide me, dad will give me wisdom and he will give me his talents to enhance me. i'll be a better person with him inside me.

thank you dad!!

:)

i have my new goal now. i'll have a for 250 and beat jean. ha

dad, help me to be smarter and confident..!

dad answered my prayer!

i want to believe that dad gave me 100 % on the quiz today.

i feel somewhat safe and relieved now to think that he's looking after me.

i finally realize that praying works.... :)

plus i recovered my first quiz and i wasn't the lowest score on the second one.

father will give me the wisdom tomorrow and i'll do fine, actually get A,

i hope, i pray and i thrive..........