40th!!!!

black,
blah,
gloom.
internet failed my heart.
but the big family celebrated my big day.
content.
moving on
on the other side...

happier than ever!

haven't got any work done for the past two days,

but i have no worries for now. is it micheys?

with the half wall filled with my books, movies, and music..

feel like my dream has come true half way.

this is the life that i envisioned.

my gpa is 3.46, officially honor.

suma cum laude is what i aspire.

what, i forgot about being cool about grades.

methinks, yesterday & today are the happiest moments since the beginning of the nursing program.

this is my dream! :)

dream came true

one week prior to my 40th,
found out that i surprisingly got critical a with 89.6 %!
i am soooo happy.
how lucky i am to have crossed the line by skin of teeth.
my black depression is being lifted,
and i'm thankful to everyone around me.
(laurie, tony, jean and myself!!!!)
with moving to my own room tomorrow,
things will face a new phase.
i deserve 2b assertive and confident.
hapa will face a mature life at her mid-pt.
ta da!!

critical care closed

what a disappointing final week of critical care?!

all cuz of final 89 %?

i decided to grow n not to care too much about grades.

maybe that's what was going to happen, as planned.

i felt like i had a brain damage when i failed the final.

also on my last ekg test.

for the past 6 mos, i can feel that my brain is degenerating.

is it reversible?

it'll challenge that.

3.29,

i finally let go of it.

i accept myself and

i'll simply do my best...

virgin er weekend

first day of ed was an excitement with angel.

second day was not bad with cool jeff.

2 IVs, 2 pum setup and code stroke was the highlight.

majority of er cases were chest pains, it turned out.

my cf presentation was pretty smooth, methinks.

i liked er and the dreaded iv start wasn't bad at all,

but i like icu better.

constant in & out nature of er was a bit dizzy.

i like focused care with more intimate interaction with pts.

big remorse cuz i didnot go back to ed for another iv to jeff.

didn't even said good bye to him.

maybe i'll try iv on me and write a thank-you card to jeff...

:)

2010: the yr we make contact

1. 2001: space odyssey

2. 2046

3. run lola run

4. yellow submarine

5. the city of lost children

6. sex & zen

7. sex & lucia

8. sex & the city

9. kika

10. les fugitif

11. drawing restraint

12. UP

13. nightmare b4 x-mas

14. waking life

15. team america

16. wallace & gromit

17. the little mermaid

18. chinese ghost story

19. nausicaa of the valley of the wind

20. s&m's sick&twisted animation festival

21. stardust memories

22. dancer in the dark

23. romeo & juliet (zeffirelli)

24. b4 sunset

25. paris, je t'aime

26. memento

27. memento mori ii

28. science of sleep

29. malena

30. funny face

31. 81/2 women

32. jean de florette

33. HOME

34. coraline

35. gone with the wind

36. akira kurosawa's dreams

37. mulholland dr.

38. la fille surse le pont

39. mj's this is it

40. slumdog millionaire

40 songs projet

1. i'll see you in my dreams

2. i just can't stop loving you -- mj

3. rainbow connection

4. graceful ghost -- george winston

5. blue danube -- strauss

6. o sole mio

7. o-rae-oh-rae -- kim jong seo

8. 3 waltz for piano op64 #2 #c -- chopin

9. piano concerto #2 & #3 -- rachmaninov

10. finlandia -- sibelius

11. piano trio e flat major d929 op.100 in barry lyndon -- shubert

12. my home town that i used to live is...

13. what a wonderful world -- louis armstrong

14. sous le ciel de paris -- edith piaf

15. watermark -- enya

16. entertainer -- scott joplin

17. stairway to heaven -- led zeppelin

18. pluto -- bjork

19. just because -- beatles

20. starting all over again -- john lennon

21. jealous tango

22. fitter happier -- radiohead

23. caravan -- duke ellington

24. pictures @ exhibition

25. i have confidence -- sound of music

26. as time goes by

27. release: afro-celtic, sinead o'connor

28. anjull -- hapa

29. devil in the kitchen -- ashley macisaac

30. prelude to afternoon of a faun -- debussy

31. utopia -- goldfrapp

32. cuban overture - gershwin

33. new world -- zap mama

34. cherie -- baaba maal

35. life on mars? -- seu gorge

36. miyake -- kodo

37. continuing story of the counterpoint

38. lugubrious gondola -- liszt

39. spring waterfall -- suso

40. creation of the cosmos -- philip glass

40 books project

1. luv is hell

2. art of seduction

3. story of o

4. general theory of love

5. microcerf

6. frankenstein

7. omnivore's dilemma

8. griffin & sabin

9. finding your own north star

10. sex manual from gv

11. wild dog: deul gae

12. tae baek mountains

13. re-te's yeon-ga

14. popcorn girl

15. cho-hahn-ji by go woo young

16. hwang-jin-i by kim dong hwa

17. horrific loner's club by lee hyun seh

18. black hole by huh young mahn

19. pikhal

20. red book by sera

21. romeo & juliet

22. me talking pretty one day

23. the little (a bit naughty) book of karma sutra

24. position of the day: expert edition

25. claiming of sleeping beauty

26. beloved

27. 1000 yrs of solitude

28. harry potter series

29. perfume

30. lord of the rings trilodge

31. my year of meats

32. eat pray love

33. the penis book

34. brave new world

35. manufacturing consent

36. story of 1001 nights

37. does android dream electric ships?

38. selfish gene

39. tao-the way

40. candy candy

tony's 4th

40 friends project:

1. viv & ty

2. heji & crees

3. rocel & jason

4. jenjen & rob

5. bong & yo

6. rob & nadia

7. doug

8. jong hwan

9. hee jean

10. tony

11. andy

12. jon

13. guppy

14. francia

15. james

16. nahm jung hyun

17. joy

18. shume

19. jison

20. hyoung mi

21. soo jung shin

22. jean woo

23. wayne

24. reyna

25. margaret

26. laurie baumgartner

27. marr

28. zoval

29. jimmy

30. qi

31. sean & christina

32. chung & xl

33. jess & manching

34. sue yeon roh

35. kristen

36. behnaz

37. albert

38. laurent g.

39. charles

40. russ....