10grand

sparky2 finally turned 10grand yesterday,

on my way home from the gym.

now he runs 100099, what a dramatic number!

today was nightmarish to fail infection control "quiz",

and almost got sued due to tony's recklessness.

i'm losing my grip and confidence.

i am truly getting dumber,

since i'm at the tail end of the class.

it's a dooming feeling...

i can do it,

i can do it..

i can do it..!

father, help moi!!!!

20th calif age

my last ob/l&d day ended c memorable note of vaginal delivery after 16 hrs' labor.

o/n and over 2 days, crossing the nite.

lab grade turned out to be 98.75 %, approximating 99 %.

turned out that ob was a break pt in nursing program.

9 mos into program, finally gives birth to the mature nursing student.

funny coincidence to have susan mixing up me with jean and we were taking care of twins as our last mission and the way jean is sandwiched with two sophias.

last give from susan was 100grand and valentine memento..

she's sweet, shrewd and insightful. weird at times, but i liked her a lot.

what a coincidence that nadia gave birth by c/s on my last ob day and also on my 20th anniversaire? my american age is 20, my dead korean age is 20, my life is 40, my student nurse age is 9 mo equivalent to full term gestational age, then my youngest 11 malibu is 1 mo & 10 days. my current gpa points to remorseful 353. from peds on, i'll never hit 10 pts below the average. i'll be always prepared and raise my iq. i challenge the impossibles!

point zero/blank/passing

i was swearing not to get any b again last nite.

then i blew up ati on my standard.

has my glorious bright days are gone by in 90s,

and i'm bit dimmer now??

could i ever restore my think power house so that i feel good about getting high scores, hitting-better-than-my-peers kind of feeling..??

i feel so deflated to discover that i did even worse than the national average,

but i'm thankful that my score is passing.

i did half good this time at least.

i am getting As half of the times so far. that is superb.

but from now on, it's not just getting As.

it's about doing my best. aiming at suma cum laude of 3.76 plus hitting top 10 % of the class.

or even beating jean to be the smartest brain, highest score of this smart group.

yeah, that's what i'll be aiming for. that sounds more like me..

for sacrificing my entire 40th year of my life. i can do it. will do it.. will challenge that...

matter of common sense!

i feel so horrible to get b of 2 units by one question.

88.99 % was my final grade for legal.

it proves that i seriously lack common sense.

feel so stupid to miss common sensical questions that everyone doesn't even question.

there's def. some missing element of common sense in me.

but i did my best.

studying more wouldn't have helped it.

at least ob quiz was a and higher than the average.

if i march with all As til the end of program, i'll still have suma cum laude title with 3.76 instead of 3.7887. it aches and hurts. well, i guess it all evens out with critical care, the way i got A by .1 %. alrighty, i'll get over it and move on..

it'll be my mantra to ace every single subject from now on.

this will be a good motivation for me.

starting A

i'm quite content with my borderline a performance today.

officially i've outdone the class average by safe margin and consistently scored higher three times by now. all is left is to continue on ati and prove to be level iii.

that's my goal to challenge myself.

also ace the rest of the clinical performances, which is an essential task.

the only remorse is the lex-nex low score and i failed to tip on router guy, who filled my heart with internet at home. i'm back online and my heart started beating strong too.

i'll do my best on my last sprint to the finish line of this A march!

5/10/10

my dreaded nightmare didn't happen,

and i started off with an awesome half full.

i couldn't believe my eyes that i did better than the average.

88.33 % is a cool combination!

now i got energized for the tough week ahead.

will breeze through the other 1/2 of this session.

getting d on 331 final did harm to my psyche indeed.

i'll get it over and restore my critical thinking.

my triumphant a caravan will start from this point on.

i'll study hard for tomorrow's legal midterm and ace that down too.

so far, so good on both classes and i'm filled with rosy dreams now.

clinical instructor susan turned out to be best after all.

i'm indeed lucky this year. from critical ending in 331 to move to bohemian room on malibu,

and 88.33 % on first ob test. have a feeling that i'll end with double As. :D

5+5=10

OB first midterm started off as a disappointment.

not sure if i was able to do better with more studying.

does it mean my critical thinking sucks?

i still have chance to make it work, methinks.

i got half and half (hapa) with my grades, nursing program and my life.

i'll do my best, aiming at As to be a suma cum laude.

have all the conditions/stars/cosmic forces lined up for that.

i'll be a critical thinker using nursing process. :)

my dreams: sophia park, RN msn, ccrn, ed.d.

house in l.a., marriage in 12, my 4th dream is a student forever.

if my brain is failing me, i'll take it as my challenge.

there won't be any bs from now on. i'll always aim high, fly high and smile high!!!